[MMCM] My Melancholic Childhood Memory

When I was about eleven years old, my younger brother and I had a ten month male German Shepherd dog whose name was Benji. We always played with Benji in the afternoon and we were so happy at that time.

One day, my brother and I went to the park to play soccer and we also took Benji. The park was located only 100 meters from our house. Benji was tied up to the tree in the park to keep him safe. There were three other dogs were also tied up in the park.

When we were playing with friends, the ball often got kicked out of the park. Suddenly, when the ball went out of the park, Benji got loose from his strap and ran very fast to the ball on the road. I still remember that Benji was trying to get the ball when a big red jeep ran over him right on his face. All that happened so fast and that was hit and run. Blood was all over his body. I froze for a second and my brother started to cry. Then I ran back home and asked somebody to drive Benji to a veterinarian.

Benji was covered with a sarong when we took him by car, but he died on the journey. Next day, we buried Benji on the land beside the river near our house.

It happened in May 1996, only two months before my twelfth birthday. I was so sad and depressed for a week. I was regretful because I could not remember the licence number of the car which hit Benji.

the fasta', the betta'

I really like the picture, taken from The Chemical Brothers album. Well, I've got this pic since mid 2005, but untill now it's still have influence on me.

I don't know what this pic really meant for the band. To me, it's like a symbol for "start your action, now!!", whereas every action must be approved by our brain. So, maybe that blue hand would push the button inside the brain to start the action.

Talking about action, I want to share my experience about it. I was a very careful person when I was a child. I used to think, re-think, and then compared the positive and negative sides (cost and benefit principle). For the result, in many times I couldn't did the action because indeed the action itself wasn't really need anymore. "Too late boy, the train leaves you", said one of my best friend. Well, I wasn't a spontaneous lad that day. Too long to think.

I've had that experience for long time untill I was in high school. I could say that the moment when I was in high school and early year in uni is "my transition moment". It was the moment of "young and foolish", thus in many times I didn't think, just follow my instinct. Too fast to make decisions.

My mind changed since I worked. I mean, really..really.. changed. All business and legal things must be done on/ before the deadline. Stressful and dejected at first, but slowly turn into excited and challenged. One of my colleague said: "You don't need to take a long time for making a decision. Sooner you make, the better you get. If it has mistakes, at least you can make the revised faster". Well, I count this period as combination of my instinct and my "cost and benefit" principle. Now, it helps me to make a decision faster in almost every time. I believe that each options has it's own plus-minus, so that you will never have to feel loss for picking one of them. Moreover, it's better to become an early bird at the station than being left by the train.

Additional note:

As mentioned before, one of the basic principles in economic is "the cost and benefit" principle. Many left-brainers do this every time they make a decision and sometime it takes long time. Then, as we all know, time is money and that will make my principle works. The formula is:

- time equals money;

- money equals cost;

time = cost.

My principle: The longer you take an action, the bigger it will cost you. Therefore, more time will reduce your benefit.

Hahaha.. Nevermind. I still don't know the name for my principle anyway..